I crashed tonight. I just hadn't been getting good sleep the last few nights, and after a long rainy football game earlier today, I came home and just didn't have the energy to go out. Thursday night I only got 3 hours of no sleep (and no fun or productive reason for the lack of it), and then last night I just got home late from being out and then had to get up early to get good parking on campus for the game. I went with Mike
and we had really good seats...4th row in the north end zone, got an upclose look at a few of the many TD's scored in the Gators' 49-10 domination of Eastern Michigan. With exception for one early drive and one in the second quarter, the Gators' defense looked pretty solid, and Chris Leak woke up after a few drives and lit up the scoreboard. Let's hope this one game was enough preparation to pull off a win in Tennessee next weekend.
People are really hard to figure out sometimes. Just when I think I've got the important people in my life understood, I have a week like the last where I'm totally fooled. I've had a few different instances that just leave me dumbfounded. Someone who shows a lot of interest in me, but then hides from those feelings. Someone who has a strike of luck in life, and is all of the sudden better than everyone else. Someone who preaches commitment to a cause, and then flakes off for no reason. Maybe I should have studied psychology. I think the only thing you learn about people as a political science major is that everyone is only out for their own good, and while I'd like to hope that isn't true about people in general, the older I get and the more people I meet, it seems to ring true. Maybe its a fallacy that there are true friends and truly unselfish people in the world, but if it isn't a fallacy, I guess I just have a hard time finding those people.
I feel myself closing up. I go through these phases. Sometimes I'm all about expanding my network and making tons of new friends, meeting tons of new people and going out more. Other times, I kind of tighten the circle and become more of a hermit. I think I'm approaching the hermit phase, partly because of what I discussed above, and partly because I sense I need to get everything under reigns if I plan on doing well this semester. Not that I haven't been doing well yet, but after three weeks full of interruption from earthly forces, there really hasn't been much to except for reading and going to class. That's about to change.
I think it's also a drama/stress factor. Drama is definitely not what I want right now, and life has generally been stressful enough of late. Nothing like three hurricanes in a month threatening to turn your life upside-down to get you on edge. I don't want drama from people either. I don't have patience for it. I think it's really funny how I end up in the middle of it too. Somehow I seemed to get grouped into situations that I don't get asked to be involved in. Of all of the people I know and hang out with, I am the last
one who will ever try to hookup with an 18 year old girl, regardless of how hot, nice or even mature she may be. I can barely find a 21 year old girl around town who can keep me intellectually stimulated for more than 15 minutes, so I've given up on any women in Gainesville that are under the legal limit. So guys, you have nothing to fear from the old man in town. I'll stick to the MILF's and grad students.
So, dare I say it this far ahead, I think we may be out of the woods with Hurricane Ivan. It's really too early to tell, but it appears the track is taking it further west and may not directly hit the peninsula of Florida. *knocks on wood* It would be nice to have one complete week of classes without the threat of closure.
That was quite a long rant. Guess thats what happens at 4:30am. I'll be on the radio
tonight from 5-8pm ET
if anyone wants to tune in. *knocks on mic* testing? 1? 2?
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